The title of this post comes from the song L.E.S Artistes by Santogold. It was an iTunes free single of the week and I'm sure my life has very few parallels to what she's singing about, but the line fit in :)
I've been freaking out somewhat in the past week or so thinking about my future and what the bleep I've done to it. I know, I know, tell you something you don't know. I really have to get in the habit of taking things one day at a time, but part of me still can't get over that idyllic dream of four years of pseudo-independent education that I left behind. I invested four-plus years into that dream and now I'm watching everyone else live it while I move farther and farther from that path. There's no reason why I couldn't go back and pursue that outlet; no one says I can't, but I know myself, and I really can't right now. I just worry I'm going to regret not having that college experience. Logic would say that I shouldn't regret not having an experience that I know will drive me to insanity, but when have you known me to be logical with my own thoughts?
I've met with my boss from the summer and a woman who is somewhat of a career counselor that works at a local library whom was recommended to me by my boss from the summer and that has reaffirmed my decision. They're going to help me get an applicable resume (the only one I have is from interviewing with colleges, and no employer is going to care about what extracurricular activities I did in the 10th grade) and network. They've been extremely encouraging and I do have somewhat of a new outlook on this whole job search, but the reality is that I'm likely going to be working my way up from the very bottom while I live with my parents and go to school part-time. Knowing myself, I have no choice but to grow up now, but growing up is scary and confining and sucky. Blah. I'll get over myself. Enough of the b*tching and onto the knitty:)
First order of business; the results are in from the charity auction that I knit for:
Yeah, I was pretty happy with that, you know, considering how under-valued hand-knits are. Those are fairly accurate prices.
Phew! Now that I've got that off of my chest, more knitty business. I'm in the middle of "birthday season". Nearly everyone I care about is born between March and April, so I've been a busy girl. After I broke two sizes of Knit Picks circs trying to knit my mom a second pair of socks for her birthday, I was forced (or at least that's what I'm going with) to stop knitting those and knit something for moi. I bought some Cherry Tree Hill Supersock a little while back to make my friend some socks. Well, for many reasons I've deemed her unworthy of hand-knit merino socks, one of those is that she's a college student, and merino socks subjected to dorm living would be enough to make any knitter stab her needles into her eyes and surrender. Sooo, of course, that yarn would be better suited to a lace shawl...for me, and thus was born Knit Picks Made Me Do It!
...and isn't she just a gorgeous specimen of responsibility-shirking, flawless, charted lace? I thought so...and finally bit the bullet and upgraded to Flickr Pro so that I could share her with everyone in March. I'm going to wear her as a kerchief sort of deal.
Yes, I do have teeth, despite what the rest of my pictures might indicate. They took many years of professional orthodontic correction and I was born without lateral incisors so my eye teeth were shaved (yes, OUCH) to look look like my lateral incisors...and I'm sharing too much, aren't I?
I have a beautiful leather jacket that I don't wear enough (I loved it too much to bring it to high school) that looks great with her.
Some dude told me I look sexy in it and I should wear it more often...then he added me as a contact. My, my, this will be awkward when I give my Flickr I.D. to my mom to give to her friend who wants to see my work...
Anywho, I've been blabbing far too long now. I will hopefully blog about more of my "birthday season" creations in the near future (especially now that I paid for Flickr Pro). I'm off to San Francisco to visit my brother on Thursday. Yippie! Maybe I'll do some travel yarn shopping :)
Hasta Luego,
Kelly
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